Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Crime “I” Committed – By Eric Lui

We should all be in jail for what we have done. This offence for which we deserve imprisonment, is not as obvious as harassing someone, injuring someone, stealing from someone, raping someone, or killing someone. No one can stop this crime; no one can arrest another for it, or can even see it. It is an unspoken crime, done in complete secrecy, which even the most righteous person will commit at one point or another. This secret offense is criminal thoughts, a crime that I, like every person, commit every day.

Thinking itself is uncontrollable. This is true of any thinking, including the thoughts about committing an offence, which if acted upon would be a crime by law. We all have violent thoughts especially when we are in the state of anger. When our fantasies include violent acts like killing, seconds later we grimace at the idea of thinking such a thing. Criminal thinking begins at a young age, and is small at first, but over time it escalates and turns into action. When I was about five, I had lost a key to my piggy bank and I saw the same key at a toy store. In time I had stolen this key, which I only recently realized was stealing because as I told myself at the time, it was only a small piece of metal and not the actual piggy bank. The theft began with the thought of stealing, which was the only solution I could think of. A couple years later I ended up stealing a ball from a dollar store with my friends, but the initiating thought was the piggy bank key and how it was easy to steal; like stealing candy from a baby. Although I have not stolen anything since then, it all started with the thought of how easy it was to take the key and then it slowly built up to taking the ball and eventually I would start stealing more valuable objects. If I kept stealing objects, continuing the trend, I would probably be stealing a car, yet I have not stolen anything since. Why not?

As I matured, these temptations started to teach me how to control my thoughts. Today, when I walk into a store, I might tell myself I could steal something so easily, without an effort, and I’m sure many other people think the same thing. But we do not act on the fantasy. A sense of morality stops us. I remember from childhood the rush of committing the act, but also the guilt that follows so vividly that just from thinking of stealing an item from a store, I can already feel the guilt again. The idea of justice, in the form of guilt, is the punishment for the undetectable offence of thinking about crime it all just depends which you think about more, justice or crime. Myself I am able to recall every act which I have committed which has broken the law, and I think if I had not stolen the key when I was small, I would definitely be stealing food from convenience stores like my friends have been the last couple years. The fact that I listened to myself about stealing the key when I was young, triggered me to think about what happens if I ever get caught. The craving for trying to steal was gone at an early age where it is not seen as big of an offence as a teenager stealing.

If somehow we were able to see into each other’s minds, I’m a hundred percent sure we would all be in jail for imagined thefts, assaults, and perhaps even murders. We all have violent thoughts; although these vary in severity from person to person in a state of rage, I am sure many of them will be related to murder. Thinking about committing an act that breaks the law, and thinking about justice and morality, are two kinds of thinking we all have in common. But really mental crimes and mental crime prevention are things we all think about – but which do you think about more?


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Heyy, my name is Eric. This is my Blog and the story of my life. I don't mind if you read it because I love how your reading my blog =). My creative side is well hopefully going to be represented in this blog. I live for the future and well hopefully the future lives for me (:. LOL well yea enough about me wats up with you?

Anyways I hope you enjoy my blog, it is full of stories i hope atleast it will be soon once again i hope xD, i love to think and i tell the world how i think through my blog. So just enjoy what you read =) and yea i love you too <3 =D.

Name: Eric Lui

Date of Birth: January 8, 1993

Age: 16

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